How will 2009 end for me?

So I am laying in bed watching "The Wedding Date" and wondering will I ever have to rent a date just not to show up at an event alone? I believe every single woman on earth has seen this movie about this single nyc woman paying an escort $6000 to be her date just not to attend a wedding alone. what stood out to me the most is when the hired date said "when a woman is ready to stop being miserable and alone she will". I couldn't help but ask myself? Am I single and alone because I am holding on to some sought of misery that is keeping me from meeting men? Am I giving off some sought of message unknowingly? I would hate to think that this is true. I think I am intelligent fun loving female with a lot to offer that just happen to attract morans lol. At the same time I am not always out and about so how can I meet quality people?

I have tried the online dating sites only to meet quacks, dogs and god knows what else. Living in a new state with all of my friends living someplace else there are not many options. I mean my co workers are all hooked up with each other so I am avoided like the plaque. I mean why do all involved women suddenly believe you are now the treat or the enemy and suddenly become home bodies or only do the couple thing? Anyway that is a totally different topic. I am seriously wondering if I am single because I projecting some kind of negative energy to the atmosphere....

I am hoping that if his assumption is true that 2009 brings something different. Honestly I have learned a lot about myself being alone for the past year and a half but I am ready for 2009 to bring some love into my life. I never thought I would be 30 and alone but I definitely do not want to be 40 and alone. I would like to have a date to my birthday parties that I actually care about, a travel body that's not just one of my female friends...and god dam it I would like to have sex on the regular without it being throw back dick...:)

Saying all this to say....I hope 2009 brings much more luck and happiness in all areas of my life including love...